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Sunday, October 2, 2011

What Dave Thinks!

For a little over six years now, I have been giving you my thoughts as God shared them with me.  However, today I want to share with you exactly what I think and I truly believe God will go along with me on this.

In my 60 years of life, I have been blessed with 3 wonderful children, 6 tremendous grandchildren and lifetime partner (wife) who has surpassed all expectations.  She just naturally flowed into my caregiver as I got sicker and sicker and I seldom even gave her a "pat on the back" for her loving efforts. For over 6 years she has been there for the little things as much as the big things.  How a person does not lose their mind in the process, I will never understand. But to me, Barb Stallings, my wife of 40 years is a "saint",

Today, Barb and I were invited up in church to share our lives and try to explain how in the middle of the chaos we remain joyful and caring of others.  It was a wonderful experience and I wish I could share it again and again to other fellowships because what we have (which is a supernatural experience) is something out of our reach and others need to hear.

In a week from todas, Barb and I will pack up the 5th Wheel and head, once again, back to Redlands (at least for the first 20 days while they do all their testing at City of Hope).  Can't say it's not an anxious move but I always remember the Lord's command at the end of the book of Matthew  "...and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age."  This shouldn't take 30 days so I'll be admitted into the hospital and they will begin to administer the harsh chemotherapy and radiation that will erradicate all of my own Bone Marrow over a 10 a day period.  On day 11 they will transplant me with my brother's healthy (please pray he will pass all physicals and tests)  Bone Marrow and they consider that "plus day one."  From there they will count forward and it is up to my body to respond to the transplant.

I have a 60% chance of getting through this as long as my other organs hold together as they are supposed to.  I do have hepatitis C which can cause some difficulties and so they will be treating the liver before we even get started but there is a problem called VOD Venus Occlusion Disease involving the liver that will not be a good thing if that happens and things could go bad very quickly they tell us. 

Finally, I told all of you at church this morning that your communion with God over my condition has more value to me and any amount of your money or possessions possibly could.  My complete faith and trust is in the ONE who made me.  If He has that power, which He does, He can watch over me in a hopital bed.

I think we are on the right path and and convinced by God that this is the right path, however, if God has chosen differently, remember the one sentence I said to you from the stage:  "I Win Either Way".

I love and cherish your faith and prayer support.

This is where "What Dave Thinks" takes a turn in the road.  My plan is to start a new blog with this experience and be able to share all the good, bad and indifferent things that got me through it.

Remember if you're struggling with God, I have a link to the 4 spiritulal laws on this site that will help you completely understand your ability to relate to God.  He loves me, and He loves you too.

Dave

Saturday, August 13, 2011

A Thought To Ponder

Some of you already know that we have made arrangements to see ANOTHER doctor out here in California at the City of Hope.  They seem to be really genuine and really wanting their doctors to review my case as it is difficult at best.

Problem is that we cannot see him until the supplemental coverage in Arizona drops me from the plan which is September 1, 2011.  So we have to WAIT once again.  Boy what a "Waiting Game" cancer can be.  Hard on your emotions, your body, your family.  Just difficult.  But we are still strong in our fight so we will wait.

As I thought about that it reminded me of a scripture in Genesis.  It's in the 3rd chapter and the 15th verse which says, "And I will put enmity (hatred) between you and the woman.  And between your seed and her seed; He shall bruise you on the head, (Devil) and you shall bruise him on the heel."   Why would God bring me to this verse?  Well, He is constantly reminding me that He and He ALONE is the miracle maker so something I gleaned from this verse years ago is that, the "woman" has "NO SEED!"  Now if you think about the statement, God is telling Satan that there will come a time in the future that a woman, a virgin woman will have "seed".  This is literally the 1st Biblical mention of the miracle birth of Jesus Christ!  Can you see it.  Woman has no seed yet God warns Satan of a virgin to come, producing the seed of Jesus Christ and His Miracle Birth.

What's so difficult about that.  Anyone who studies the Bible can easily come to the same conclusion.  Well, so did I.  And it has helped me over the years to understand that if our God has the ability, not only to produce the "seed" in the woman, and tell about it several thousand years earlier, then He surely has the ability to produce a Miracle in my life today by producing sufficient clean blood cells to rid me of this "Death Inducing" disease known as leukemia.  Get it?  Early on, close to the beginning of EVERYTHING God introduces this Miracle yet to come.  And He is still in the Miracle making business.

So, where does that leave me?  Well, I have an appointment with doctors whose only job is to fix in mankind, disabled blood cells and help continue life.  Am I right?  You bet I am.  So just short of a month now, we stand before these gentlemen, and listen to their recomendations concerning, "literally, my seed!"  WOW!  Doesn't that grab you by the hair and throw you around the room a little?  It sure does me (now that I have some hair back).

God is still here, still directing our paths as Barb and I continue to search for His perfect will while we keep sharing the Gospel of Christ with all that we meet.

I hope your day will be as good as mine, tomorrow.

God's Best,

Dave

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Comments from a precious sister in the Lord!

Hi Dave,

Have just been doing some catch-up on your blog, which I do from time to time...just wanted to say a heartfelt "thank you!" again for what you write...I know it comes straight from your heart.

I thank you for how it continually points me to the Lord, and you always hit the nail on the head with your topics and thoughts about this life, hard as it is sometimes, and the life to come.

Your writings always create a peace in my soul, as I read of how much God loves me, and how He always keeps His promises to those who believe on His name and live for Him. Thank you so much!!!!

I am so sorry for the awful shock that you and Barb got today as you went to that long anticipated first appointment with the specialist...just incredible how that got messed up for you all...and how
costly it was. I pray that somehow God will use that experience in your favor...that is pretty much my prayer right now for you guys, that you will receive God's favor in the days ahead. Please know that
you are always on my mind and in my prayers...sweet, blessed folks!

With Love,

Ruth

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

A Day To Remember...Or Not!

Today was my long awaited appointment in Southern California at the University of California Medical Center with Dr. Buxbaum, an expert in the cancer "MDS" which works it's way into full blown Leukemia.  We were extremely excited and anxious as this would let us know if I had a chance to get a Bone Marrow Transplant or not.

My wife has spent the last 4 months with my Oncologist and office assistants in order to have all records and necessary information in the hands of this doctor by the time we arrived at 1:30 PM today.  Well, we arrived early so forms could be completed and we could argue over the fact that we had to pay cash for the visit (along with a "facility fee" of $65.00 just for seeing the doctor at USC...WOW)!

Okay, most of it is settled and she asked us if we were there with the ability to pay up to $610.00 for this single consult.  Well, after some discussion back and forth (and a small amount of SHOCK), finally they took a blank check to hold until we finished with the doctor.  We're In!  Whoo Hoo!

Barb and I are sitting in the room waiting to see this VERY SPECIAL doctor ($610.00 for initial visit, Whoo)!

He comes in, introduces himself, he is indeed, Dr. Buxbaum (I notice his name on his lab coat) and asks us what brings us to his office.  "Well, we were referred here by my Oncologist so that you could determine my qualifications, based on my MDS, for a Bone Marrow Transplant.  His first statement is, "What is MDS?"  Of course we laugh as though he were just jousting with us.  Then he asks again.  "No really, what is MDS?"

ARE YOU SERIOUS?  Very much so was his reply.  As we talked, we learned that he was not an MDS Specialist but rather a GI/Liver Specialist!  somehow, with 4 months of leg work for our visit, we were hooked up with a GI/LIVER Specialist instead of  an MDS Specialist.  We are a long way from home for this kind of mistake but it is true.  Barb and I are in shock and do not now, know what to do.

Anyway, in our messy life, things go wrong.  From what I started with above, one would think that the office visit would have gone off without a "hitch."  But it went anything but right.  A lot of people use a favorite quote about "Murphy's Law" saying, "Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong."  I'm trying not to look at it that way but rather, "for if Christ is for me, who can be against me?"  This mistake, though VERY big in the scheme of our lives, cannot sway Christ from His purpose for me.  I am His child, adopted with a purpose and working together with His Spirit for the kingdom of God.

So we came back to the RV and will regroup, ask God for His help and try to find the right doctor next time.  Lots of time, money and stress went into this planned doctor's visit just for EVERYTHING to go wrong.  But we are still looking for God's purpose here.

BUT, I didn't get a chance to share with you ALL THE THINGS THAT WENT "RIGHT" during this visit to Southern California.  I'll keep that for another time but just remember, God has His hand right in the middle of my need to see this MDS SPECIALIST and as it is or is not His will for me, we will surge forward.

God loves you,

Dave

UNBELIEVABLE!!!!!!

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Standing With God Through It All!

Well, some of you may know that Barb and I are leaving tomorrow night for Southern California for the purpose, first of all, to meet with the MDS Specialist on the 9th of August.  It was a visit that my Oncology Doctor has encouraged (even though he doesn't see much in it himself).  So we have made arrangements to park our 5th Wheel at Mission RV Park in Redlands, California.

Once we arrive, our first priority is to get California ID's so we will have a part-time residence.  I have already set up a banking account there so we have more documentation for our dual residence.  Then we will go to the Department of Economic Services (DES) and complete the process of applying for State Aid.  This is the only way, according to the City of Hope, in Los Angeles, for me to have sufficient insurance to get through this battle.

I don't know how long we will be there.  We may see the specialist and he may tell us we've wasted our time and we might as well go back home (hopefully that won't be the case), or he could have a completely different view of my medical situation.  They have all of my medical records and I am really up and looking forward to this meeting.  I will say that because I have always allowed God to control my emotions concerning these multiple cancers, I "will not be moved" according to his thoughts.

My favorite scripture passage in all of the Word of God is the promise from Jesus in John 14 where He says, "Do not be afraid, you believe in God, believe also in Me.  In my Father's house are many dwelling places.  If it were not so, I would have told you that I go to prepare a place for you.  And if I go, I will come again and receive you unto Myself, that where I am, there you may be also." (paraphrased)

There is not a one of us that has an "expiration date" stamped on the bottom of our feet.  Our lives are preciously laid in the Perfect hands of God and I trust Him completely.  For some of you who may have trouble with my attitude, know that your most important trust factor in life is the One who created you.

My prayers for all of you is that you find that trust, that you receive that "peace that passes all understanding", that walk with the Father that fills your spirit with joy.  I wish to be known forevermore as a man who, first of all "walked with God" and secondly made His presence known to everyone I met.  I know that my body is very, very sick...but God!

(our email addresses and phone number are always the same...papadave3@gmail.com & grammybarb2@gmail.com and 623-243-2030 is Barb's phone number)

Dave

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Comment From A Close Friend

Hi Dave!

I just read your recent blog post, and it gave me chills!!!  I just finished watching one of the last Glenn Beck TV episodes we recorded, and he was saying the same thing...  that our country and this world is most definitely changing at an alarming pace, but America has its head stuck in the sand.  So these thoughts were circulating in my mind when I logged on to the internet and read your post.
Praise God, we know who "sets up kings and deposes them" for His purposes and in His timing!  We know Who is ultimately in control of ALL things and Who is writing HIStory!!  Many times I become concerned for what lies ahead for all of us, but more concerning is what our children and grandchildren will face, but I know the Lord will remain ever faithful to His children no matter what lies ahead.

A favorite verse of mine is Isaiah 26:3 "Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee: because he trusteth in Thee."
Thank you for consistently pointing toward Heaven and the Hope and Salvation Jesus freely offers to anyone who will believe. I can't imagine facing this life without it!  Lauren recently shared a song with Barb written by Laura Story, titled "Blessings".  I am sure she shared it with you.  My favorite lyrics in the song are:
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst
This world can't satisfy?
We will never know complete peace and joy until our spiritual thirst is finally satisfied in the presence of our Lord and Savior!  I am looking forward to sharing eternity with you and Barb and so many other friends and family, as we worship at the feet of our Lord!
Praying for you, dear friend...

Amy

Monday, July 25, 2011

A Time To Do Some Serious Thinking

Does the thought of a "White Horse with a rider" coming out of the sky concern you at all or even "peek" your curiosity?  Well it doesn't peek my curiosity because I've read the end of the book, however we in American and around the world are as "UNPREPARED" for an event like this more now than ever before.

Back in November, I made a small investment in a Foreign currency deal and have spent a lot of time reading news about it and what is happening all over the world.  Today I believe that it is entirely possible for the powers that be to be controlled ABSOLUTELY by God to usher into being the "Second Coming of Christ and the Millennium, Armageddon and all that goes along with it.  I've read articles about our president and the Prime Minister of Israel having very UNCOMFORTABLE conversations as to which leader will win his battle concerning God's land that He "gave to the Jews".  I read stories of reactor damage in Japan that is just now beginning to affect our shores, Washington States to be exact.

I read stories of the beginnings of food shortages and the affect of the high prices oil on our lives.  I've read very disturbing stories that will affect my children and grandchildren and I believe that today we live in a society that has their heads "stuck in the sand".  I think that their philosophy is "if we don't see it, it cannot happen."  That kind of reminds me of my childhood days when I was afraid of a "Monster" in the room.  I would just cover my head and could not be harmed.

We as a people, forget America (not even mentioned in the end times) we are failing as a people of a Nation founded on the principles of God and swiftly, these foundations are being jackhammered right out from under us.  No "God" in school.  Gayness has become an extreme social advancement in the socioeconomic way of life to the extent that we just don't even concern ourselves anymore.

Our Pastor discussed the importance of "integrity" in our everyday lives and out of about 150, I fear that no more than perhaps 10 even gave it a second thought (by the way, Pastor Marty, very informative and convicting message).

The Bible says in 1st Corinthians 15:52, "in a moment, in a twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet; for the trumpet with sound, and the dead raised imperishable, and we shall ALL be changed." (can you imagine how quickly a "twinkling" of an eye will be?)We shall All see the Christ Jesus (but perhaps not ALL changed) in all of His glory, prepared not only for battle, but to take His church out of this chaos and into it's much needed eternity.  You may NOT choose to see this as a fact, however I would   argue with you that the Bible is the only written directive that is of ABSOLUTE nature as it was pinned by our God Himself. 

You may choose to walk away and bury your head in the sand so you cannot see the changes taking place, but they are changing none the less.  Being left behind (especially because of a stubborn attitude) would be one of the "most high" mistakes a candidate as a "child of the King" could every choose to accept.

Now is the time, more so than any other time in history to surrender EVERYTHING (regardless of it's current place in your life, fall to your knees and find your peace with God.  Most of you know me, know of my medical situation and also know that my "story" coincides with God's so I really have nothing to fear in this life or the next.  Situation not quite the same with some of you.  Time to sit down and have a heart to heart with God (a "come to Jesus" meeting sort of) and let Him guide you.  Of course, I am always available and if I cannot give you a good and decent answer to your questions, I'll find someone who can.  Jesus Christ is close, like the investment I made in currency.  But I believe that Jesus has the upper hand.  You can reach me at papadave3@gmail.com.  I promise I will not ignore your mail. Just one more thing and that is that I feel we are so close to seeing Jesus' triumphal return,   When it is real quiet and calm, I can almost feel the "brush of angel wings" against my cheeks as they begin to surround us with their protection.

God loves you and so to I,

Dave